Prized Possession

I never thought about this question, but Two things that I hold close to my heart are my two boys. Ben and John are my life. They are what keep me going, right when I am ready to give they are what give me light. Life it self is hard let alone with two more little humans. Every morning they have their own wants and needs but its human nature. I am a mother, daughter, sister , friend, wife and a worker. All this does not come easy but it all gets done with the positive energy my little’s give me. My baby is on the spectrum so all with all that life throws at me it does get hard. In true reality I can not imagine life without my babies. When they are down, hurt, sick or whatever is getting them down

Misconception

Many say say don’t judge a book by its cover, but its hard to do so sometimes. I am guilty of it, I find myself changing my opinion from time to time.  Many times I have meet different people from different social class and honestly they are all different in their own unique way. I have heard that automatically as a social group if you grew up in a hostile environment that, that’s who you are. I have also heard that rich people are all stuck up. Which all is not true, well at least in my opinion. Over the years as I have encountered a lot of people and some do surprise me. As I have matured I have learned not to judge, as I do not like it when it happens to me. Many say I look mean or mad, in my opinion I do not I just have a serious resting face. Which is what I can agree on is that a have a serious resting face. Sometimes I get lost in my deep thoughts, and this happens to me all the time. Honestly I am an easy going person. I enjoy meeting new people and new places, trying new things in reality I am always up for a new adventure. Many people say that I may seem to fragile because I tend show that I am too feminine, but fragile does not define me. People sometimes think that I am not up for adventure if it means to get dirty. But I love getting an adrenaline feeling and sense of accomplishment and many times I have been told that they had doubt in me at some point and proving them wrong is what drives me.

Are you angry, angry?

Something that makes me really angry is seeing people be disrespectful. This could be towards anyone especially when its towards the elderly and the special needs. I understand when we are in a hurry and this older person is not moving as fast as your are or thinking at the the same speed as you and it can be irritating. However, they are not doing it on purpose as many may think. When witnessing situations I stop and think to my self, “wow this person is such an ass.” I try to be as helpful as possible without invading the personal space of the individual. The only problem with that is that the elderly do not want to fill incompetent. So I just ask to give them a helping hand. Luckily I do not see much of that. Now what I do see on the daily basis is children and adults with special needs. Exposure is what has given me the opportunity to understand. I may not walk in their shoes directly but I do walk side by side them. So when I see people outside their world looking at them in such way, or making negative remarks this does make me very angry. Not so much at their actions, but for them being so naive. I understand we are not all exposed to all sorts of individuals but it does not take a lot to slow down. We are use to going at a fast paste that we do not enjoy our time or stop to educate ourselves but instead we have the tendency to loose patience and get angry and what individuals have no control of.

Something your good at

Something that I am good at is making beef stew. My beef stew is the best out of my whole family. Originally a good friend taught me how to make it, and since then I have been making it, I’ve been going four years and strong. Mt beef stew consist of beef chucks and a few bones to give it that extra flavor. That bone is there just for flavoring, which is later given to my dog. Asides from that cooking the meat for 2.5 hours is important because that is what gets the meat nice and tender. Cooking is not my specialty, however beef stew is. My beef stew goes with a variety of veggies, this all depends on who is eating and what is there preference in vegetables.

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Asides from that I think I am pretty good at whatever I set my mind to. I have came across times that I have no idea of what I am doing, but with practice I can manage to get good a it.

Favorite Toy

So, when I was little like about six years old, my god mother gave me a Ragedy Ann doll. This doll was the best gift that was given to me at the time. On her top left side or her chest she put a personalized message. She put, “love you infinity, love your god mother.” This doll was like a security toy. I became so obsessed with this toy that I did not want anything to harm her in any such way. I did not give her a unique name as I did with all my dolls. I kept her name as Ann. I put Ann away every night on my bookshelf, and picked her right up after school. Now, that I think about it I did not play much with her, I basically just sat her up wherever I was at. After a period of time I grew out of it I went back to my barbies, but the love I had for her did not change. I really couldn’t do much with her. I could not change her outfit, or comb her hair, which I guess made it a bit boring to have her. After a period of time of having her she soon became part of my room decor. although she was part of the room decor I always made sure she was there. So at the end she became a close sentimental gift that was given to me by one of my favorite people in the world.

 

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Write about someone or something you really miss.

Have you ever wondered where time has gone? Sometimes I do! Everyone always says, “you will miss being a child”. Well for myself, it’s not so much that. I miss the free spirit part of it. As a child you do freely, and speak freely without having to worry about being judge or corrected for acting in such way. As an adult or even as you approach your teen years it is almost as if you start walking on egg shells. So I guess what I am saying is that I miss the simplicity way of life. As for me missing someone I really miss my grandmother.  I really miss everything of her. The way she kept the storm calm, my mom had someone to look forward in seeing every three months. Every time we went over to my grandmothers my cousin and all would all get together. We would all enjoy each others company, cook, laugh, talk about old stories, but most importantly we would all have each others company. I remember having to go to my grandmothers one summer and I complained the whole drive up to Fresno. I was convinced that I would somehow convince my mom to turn back home. Fortunately it did not work. Now. I say fortunately because that was my last summer with her, she passed away six months later. From what I can remember she was a happy lady.

20 Minute Blog Journal

Write about a time you laughed really, really, hard. 

A time I laughed really. really, hard, was a few weeks ago. I went up to Mt. Baldy I thought I was big and bad and totally fell and ate it. Being that there wasn’t much snow it was still pretty rocky. But my kids were with me and my significant other so although I really wanted to cry  I could not. It wasn’t till I saw a rip in my pants and a scrape that it actually hit me what had happened. Little did I know that Herbert was recording the whole time and he made it into the great fall. My face the reaction itself was funny but man was i in pain. Suddenly  instead of crying because that is what I really wanted to do I started to laugh hysterically. Tears started to fall down my face and I said wow I am laughing so hard that I can’t even open my eyes. My kid told me “it’s OK mom, not a big deal just let it out,”! At that point I was not sure what I wanted to do. Now, the back story to that is that we are always pushing Big Ben into doing courageous things and he is very well sheltered. With that being said I told him to stop being a baby, and said to him”look if i can do it so can you.” So I realized going down that hill was not about being courageous, but being a dare-devil. So I have come to a realization that as a parent kids know there limits maybe I should too!

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Picture Book

Skunk’s Spring Surprise

This book should of won the Caldecott Award. This book has a good rhythm. Its almost as if listening to music and you find the lyrics or the instrumental ear catching except this is eye catching as you read you can set a tone. This tone keeps you reading. So, It all starts with with winter season coming to its end and skunk is thinking that all her friends ditched her and just forgot about her. Little did she know they were planning a surprise party in celebration of her hibernation ending. They wanted their friend to feel special and wanted to surprise her. I really like how they took in consideration that skunk basically took a long nap and most likely thought that she was going to miss them as much they had missed her. So they decided to throw her a party. After they threw skunk the party skunk was not only surprised but instead appreciative towards her friends because of the nice gesture they did.